We're Engaged! This past week has been the happiest week of my life. I just feel so happy and content and thrilled! There have been a million thoughts going through my mind, and I wanted to write some of them down so I could always remember this feeling and these memories. I don't ever want to forget.
I want to remember… how excited I am! I can’t believe this is really happening! I’m getting married! Matt is going to be my HUSBAND!
I want to remember… how I can’t stop staring at my ring. I am wondering if it will ever get old. It still feels surreal to look down and see an engagement ring on my left finger. I have been dreaming about this forever.
I want to remember… how great of a job Matt did picking out my ring. I always thought I wanted a halo engagement ring. Matt never liked that style. He ended up going with a cushion cut and I couldn’t be happier. Now that it is on my finger, I can’t think of a more perfect ring for myself. I wonder if I would have felt this way no matter which diamond he picked. I can’t picture anything else on my finger anymore. It’s funny how that happens. Every time I look at it, it screams PERFECTION. It is just so ME! It is the best gift I’ve ever received.
I want to remember… how I feel like a princess living in a fairytale right now. I’M ENGAGED! TO MATT! And the ring is like the icing on the cake!
I want to remember… how terrified I am of losing this ring. I wonder if that feeling will ever go away. The morning after the proposal, I was so afraid my ring would fall off in the shower that I must have stared at my left hand during the entire shower.
I want to remember… how sparkly this ring is. Never seen anything sparklier or prettier.
I want to remember… how special it was that my family was a part of the proposal. I will forever be grateful to Matt for including them, and for knowing how important it would be/was for me to have them there. I would have hated to have called them to break the exciting news. The moment and day was so memorable, and I’m so thankful they were there to celebrate with me that day. The fact that it was all his own idea, too, makes it all the more special. He gets me.
I want to remember… how the photographer said she was nervous taking the pictures during the proposal. She had never shot an actual proposal before and she said she was shaking she was so nervous. So funny.
I want to remember… how we were drinking 2011 Hayfork when he proposed, and how special that is due to the the fact that Matt and I met in 2011. The grapes we toasted to were budding in the year that our relationship was budding. Cheesy, but so cool.
I want to remember… how we also put two and two together at dinner that night that Matt proposed to me on the 13th and Matt asked for my dad’s permission to marry me on the 13th hole of a golf course.
I want to remember… how grateful I am that Jordan knew I would want a photographer there. Can’t wait to get those pictures back and to have that magical moment forever preserved.
I want to remember… Mom bawling her eyes out when we walked back up to the family to celebrate.
I want to remember… Dad asking me if I wanted to go on the show “Say Yes to the Dress” HAHA!
I want to remember… how I fall asleep staring at my ring, and how it’s the first thing I look at when I wake up. Just checking to make sure its all still real, and not a figment of my imagination.
I want to remember… all of the well wishes and outpouring of love from friends & family felt. We have some pretty amazing people in our lives. I’m happy they were all as excited as we were when we announced the news. I guess that’s one of the many great things about weddings…feeling all the love.
I want to remember… how nervous Matt was the morning of the proposal. I thought he was nervous because he was debating 3-4 job offers on his plate that week. He seemed so preoccupied and distant. I knew the stress of the pending job transition was taking its toll on him, but I didn’t realize it was compounded with the stress of the upcoming proposal. He said he couldn’t sleep the night before, that he tossed and turned every 30 minutes. He was pacing the house out front when we were getting ready to leave that morning for our first vineyard tour. It’s so cute to play it all back in hindsight with the knowledge that he was nervous about proposing.
I want to remember… that I initially thought he had just bought me some Kate Spade jewelry. When he stopped underneath the olive orchard during our walk, he said, “I got you something.” He pulled out a Kate Spade burlap jewelry bag from his left pocket and I remember being slightly disappointed for a second because I thought for a moment that this could be “it.” I remember thinking how random it was that he would be giving me some Kate Spade jewelry for no apparent reason. (But at least he knows me well enough that if he was going to gift me some jewelry, that it would be Kate Spade!) But then he pulled out a ring and dropped to one knee.
I want to remember… what he said to me when he asked for my hand in marriage… “I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Will you marry me?”
I want to remember… that I didn’t even look at the ring at first. I was just so excited that this was really happening. I pulled him up off his knee so I could hug him and kiss him. My Dad said one of his favorite memories of that moment was how I didn’t leave Matt resting on his knees for very long. He said I instantly scooped him up in my arms to embrace him. That was my gut reaction.
I want to remember… that after I said “Yes!” that Matt picked me up and twirled me around in that perfect-movie-moment way. Even my back leg bent up. I didn’t even mean to do it but it just happened and felt so picture perfect. I hope the photographer was able to capture that moment.
I want to remember… that after I said “Yes!” that Matt handed me the ring. I told him, “you’re supposed to put it on my finger!” Haha. He later said he was afraid it wouldn’t fit and that’s why he wanted me to put it on.
I want to remember… London’s voicemail the day we got engaged. She called and left Matt a message that said, “Congratulations Matt Beck. I hope you have a nice time at your wedding” in her sweet little voice. Matt and I were cracking up. The way that she said it made it seem as if she thought we had already gotten married, or that we were going to get married and she wouldn’t be there. So innocent and sweet.
I want to remember… London and Rowan’s reaction to being asked a few days later if they would be our flower girl and ring bearer. London had been asking Ashley ever since she learned of the proposal if she could be our flower girl. Ashley told her that you can’t ask people, but that you have to wait for them to ask you. She said London asked her every hour about it. We FaceTime’d with her on Sunday to ask her and Ashley said she thought London was going to cry she was so happy. We kept asking her “Are you sure you want to be our Flower Girl?” and she said “Yes! Can you please stop asking me!” She immediately got online and started scrolling through Flower Girl dresses online and was making Ashley text me pictures of the dresses she liked. And Rowan told Ashley after we hung up the phone with him, “I can’t wait to dress fancy.”
I want to remember…how excited I was to go to work the following Monday. I had been out of the office for 2 days and before I left, a few of the ladies I work with said they were hoping I’d get engaged on our trip. I couldn’t wait to get to work so I could show off my ring and tell them all about it. It was fun to relive it and actually be able to tell someone in person since I shared all the news with my friends and family via phone and text. They were all so ecstatic and they said, “Finally we have some excitement here around the office!”
I want to remember… how awesome social media is. It is so cool to have everyone’s reactions and well wishes recorded. I plan to scrapbook the texts and Facebook comments because I want to remember them all.
I want to remember… how delicate I am being with my ring. I am so afraid I am going to slam it against a wall or something and it break. I am also very paranoid about putting lotion on my hands now, (something I’m obsessive about) because I don’t want the lotion to dull the diamond and its sparkle.
I want to remember… the first time Matt introduced me as his “fiancée.” March 18th. My heart skipped a beat. I love the way it sounds.
I want to remember… my mom telling me how much time Matt spent researching the diamond. He told me mom, “it has to be perfect, because she is perfect.”
I love you Matt Beck. Can't wait to marry you! Xoxo.